Ended!

At last, our journey ends on 16/10/2008...





How should I say about my feelin for the moment? Is it happy or SAD?


Hmm, I just couldn't explain myself...I'm having a confused feeling for the moment...





Million of tears was tryin to rolls down to my cheek, but I'm just trying to control myself for not crying over it. I'm a big boy...no longer the small boy that u know last time...





If i didn't asked you, I think the relationship will still go on without ur commitment...I'm just an idiot in commiting all this while. While i was trying to get u back on the track again, did you ever think of going back on it? No RIGHT? All you cared is only your friends but not ME!





Ever since you come to college, you changed a lot... You really changed alot.


You are not the girl i know from last time. You are not the one whom loved me the most anymore... I trusted you again and again. In the end, I'm just a dumbass being fooled for all this while...





I asked you why?


You told me that you are confused for the moment when u thinks that the are problems occured...Where are those promises that you made to me huh? Bull Shiting just to need my trust and my commitment right? You even told me that there are no more LOVE EXIST in us anymore...Holy Christ, this is the best answer that i get from ya... ~ what kind of answer is that?


If u thinks that you can't commit from the very moment...why dun u just tell?


That is why we never get things solved...Yet u dare to said that no more LOVE EXIST but you can't deny that u still CARE about me(haha)...--> wat is this?Could anyone explain what does this means?U said sorry to me for what? What is the purpose of saying sorry? huh?

I asked you to forget about me, you don't want... You told me that you are not that kind of girl, you appreciate what i had done to you all this while...If you ever appreciate all this while, you had never treat me that way, never...

You asked me - we're still fren rite? A closer fren than a normal fren? You hope I won't stay away from u... Don't wish us to be like last few years...?! How am i suppose to answer you that?
How?

Haih, I trusted you again and again...
Last time was this, it repeats again...
Happy or not after you get to toy my feeling once again?
How do you feel? Did you ever put yourself in my position and think about my feels? No RIGHT?

Consider myself a dumbass who trusted you again all this while...
I told myself that I won't let u down once again, but it seems that you don't wish to continue it anymore...Don't have the initiative to mend it back...
The worst part is you asked me whether I'm sad or not?Haha...Jokes for the centuries...

I think i think too much all this while,
I'm not a perfect guy for u, I'm just dumb, stupid, or a guy who can't handle any relationship well...

However, what ever makes you happy la ya?
I will not blame ya, or curse ya...
You will still have my wishes althought I'm not the one who will accompany ya for the rest of your life anymore...
Take care...
And please, try ur best to forget me...

The feeling is no longer there...

Hmm,
Back to this blog again,
back to here for what?
Why i put title as:"The feeling is no longer there"?

yeah!
its true.
My feeling towards her is no longer there anymore...
Haha...
I just somehow feels that my life has been greater ever since i try to leave her alone with no hesitate...
why?why should i do so?
Because, whenever i msg her, called her or try to communicate with her...
I can feel that the tone or the way she talks to be its difference from last time...
She started to change when she enter the same college as I(we are not in the same course)...

Maybe I'm just too stupid or dumb for trusting her all this while,
Yeah!
Maybe she should realise one day that when she get to lose me once again then only she will appreciate me...