Anxious = Arguement

Hmm...
What the fuck i was trying to do?
I couldn't understand her more and what she wants nowadays,

This is what she let me felt all this while,
Got her best frenz as room mate, and her neighbour...
I think i no longer important anymore,
Assignment make u frust...i know that,
But i dun have meh?
Huh?
I still keep cool and make u happy all this while, cheer u up when you are down,
But please, whenever you are busy, spent some time on me please...

Think back to urself,
did i ever failed u?
Huh?

U want eat Mcd, I asked my fren to go and buy for ya without any hesitate,
Ask me to go over to fix the cable for ur internet connection,
I got plenty of assignment to rush but i still there to help ya to fix it, why?
As i dun wan to let ppl say that ur "fren" does not come to fix it while we wait for so long...

Haih,
I dun wan to say this no more...
I just hope that u will realise as fast as possible that our path to our journey is leaking and the road is still far away,
We need to rebuilt the road, the bridge just to make through all this thing...
Please...

What is this all about?

Is this what u want?
Or what i want?
What's the point?

Feeling damn frustrated, sad, unhappy, and........
Why?
Why should this happened to me huh?

I been trying to told myself that this is going to be alright soon...
In the end?
I was just cheating on myself all this while...
Babe, if u were get to read this...then u will know how i feel for the past few months...
feeling damn sad and down whenever i ask u out...
Excuse excuse and excuse...
this is what i get for the past few monts...

Me:"dearie, wanna go out with me?"
U:" dunno oo, will see about it k?"
Ok, treat that nothing happed, wait till the day come...
U went out with your room mate and neighbour...then what's the point am i asking ya to go out?huh?

Me:" babe, wanna go out this sunday not?"
U:" got assignment."
U got ur assignment to rush, Me?
I don't have la is it?
Huh?

All i wanted is just to spent a few hours with ya to go out for a walk , to catch a movie or so called what a couple should do...
In the end?

I end up become a dumbass here, promises that u made before step into college was just crap...
Hmm...
I dun wish to lose u, but all u care about was just your room mate la, this and that la...
Where am i?
What am i to u huh?
Can't u feel it?

Assignment can rush anytime, but the time for us is like precious u know?
I showered u with concern and love.
But what i got from u?
Please, please, please, spent some time with me...
I'm the one who would spent my life time with ya after this but not ur room mate or ur neighbour k?

Think for me but not for them k?
Please!

If i got a gun in my hand now...
I would just blow my head...
so people out there,
if u ever saw me in EMO state,
KILL ME PLEASE!

Undescibeable

Haih,
I just dun understand myself...
Should i stand on my own feet when i face her?
Huh?

Hmm...dunno la, Just freaking hate myself for the moment.
Should i scold her?
Argue with her?
Hmm, Damn emo now, EMO!!!

We are here like for almost few months d, did we go out and pat toh?
No right?
So i asked u, so u answered me when its the day then let me know? Ok lo, fair enough for ya?
What did u do?
No sms, then rather go and enjoy urself with ur frenz rather than accompany me...

I feel so sad and bad!
What for having me?Why?
Is this wat u called LOVE?
Huh?

Haih...
Dun care la...
Let the time be and healed back my broken wings la...
Hearts were torn in to pieces, I need time to mend it back...

Bye!