Sacrifice for nothing...

This is what i should get from ya huh?
Keep on lying to me?
Huh?
Is this the way what u called LOVE?

Hmm...
那首歌 by 林宥嘉,
this song is so meaningful to me...
all the lyrics is like showing all the meaning to me...
especially this part = 一开始你爱我 最后你放弃我

damn suits my situation,
I dunno wat happen to her or i make anything wrong till it become this worst situation...
Keep on lying to me,
I somehow don't feel any happiness nowadays...

She dun even have the iniative to show concern or wat...
didn't even have the time to call and said " come! let's go out"
Haih...
Damn fed up la...

Hey babe, please tell me wat's wrong okay?
Huh?
Do u still care about the relationship in us?
Please please please...tell me please...
If u think that i'm just a pet to u?
Whenever u need me, u will msg properly = Dear, darling, ....

I sacrifice so much for ya but u just some how thinks that its necessary right?
Let me tell u,
If u thinks that watever i do to u now its necessary, but u just don't some how show ur appreciation...
Whenever U leave me or I'll leave you one day...
You will started regret like somehow...

U came back from ur trip,I go fetch ya...
I didnt manage to sleep for the whole night as i know that u r coming back to malacca to accompany me d...
Drive up to campus, get ur luggage, bring u for breakfast + lunch, go back HOME...
Yeah, should thanks ya for the Him Heang biscuit...All the way from penang and get my family for that...
Thanks a lot, but i dun wan that okay...
All i need is ur time to spent on me but not at ur coursemates or ur so called "wife" roomate...
I can feel that even ur roomate also pity on me...
Why la all ur time is on ur fren but not on the one that sacrifirce on u so much...

Haih, I think i'm just the guy being cursed...
Each time msg ya, i get to feel fear...whether u will reply me or not?
Now i know, whenever ur fren msg u, u reply them asap as u can...

U changed a lot,
U really changed a lot. a lot, a lot...
no more morning greeting from ya,
no more anxious msg from ya,
no more, no more, no more...

This feeling is no longer right,
I have tried to salvage,
You’ve neglected me and actually just wanted someone by your side,
I finally understood,
and You look so tired,
Yet my heart aches and you suffering,
Your beauty is something I am not worthy of....

Its the matter of chance and time...
think for yourself!

Is it the time to let go?!

Is it the time to let go off ya?
Is it the time for me to forget you?
Is it the time that the love between us had already gone?
Is it?
Is it?

Can u please tell me what were you trying to do?
U wanted this love to end up itself and silently is it?
Why don't you just say it out?
Huh?

I swear,
Nowadays i doesn't seems to be any happy with ya,
cause i just don't feel that u still commiting yourself in this relationship...
maybe those guys were right,
I was too poisoned myself to ya with love in this relationship...
Hmmm, i was too dumb to trust ya from the very first time...

At last, i feel the hardness of being with ya in such love way...
You were sweet when the love is still hot,but for now u seems like no more commitment anything...
My call, my msg were just too annoying to ya...
U seems like dun have the initiative to reply my msg...
U will only reply those bitches or butches in ur class or so called classmates...

I fucking hate this!!!
I fucking hate you!

If u think that you course mates is more important me...
I think somehow its better u leave me rather than i leave you...
So if it is the time, Just go away from my bloody sight okay?
Just go!!!

I'm not worthy...

In this crowded street,
there are many ppl filled with secrets,

I do have my secrets...
Somehow i just dunno why i can't pulled myself out off her...why?
Why?Why?Why?

I'm gettinng tired and weak everyday...
somehow,I'm just a dumbass that been toying for all this while...

I wanted to ask her many times...
does her still care about me?
Or all the new life that she wanted now is only her friends but not me?

Hmm, it seems that she is more happier with her friend than me nowadays...
I dun wanna mention about wat had happen all this while,
But it seems that i started to feel and get bored with her...

All this while i was like playing one man game, no commitment, nothing...
Is this wat u called LOVE?
Huh?

Nowadays, i started to feel somehow leaving is the only way that can cure the painfulness in my heart.
Babe, forgive me if i had to leave u someday...
The promises that u made towards me doesn't seems it works and efficient...
I dun wan to listen all those sweet words from u no MORE!

I think i'm just too annoying to u. Maybe someone was right, somehow you won't appreciate when u have it! When its the time u started to lose it, then u will only regret.

Happy days was just a memories and nightmare to me.
Nowadays, i doesn't seems to be somehow happy. Everyday EMO! All i can do is only clear you out of my mind...
When its the time that I dun wan to entertain u, it somehow u will msg me...why?

Haih, i think i can be nominated as the dumb-est person a.k.a Boyfriend in the world. Somehow, is either being dump or being cheated...

God, please treat me good please.
I wanna a better relationship, I wan someone that concern me, I wan someone that appreciate me, I wan someone that will showered me with LOVE, I wan someone that will could reveal our relation to the public...I wan, I wan, I wan...

Haih,
Wait for the time to come!

Gotta go now...
Will updated if any emo is on ME!