What is this all about?

Is this what u want?
Or what i want?
What's the point?

Feeling damn frustrated, sad, unhappy, and........
Why?
Why should this happened to me huh?

I been trying to told myself that this is going to be alright soon...
In the end?
I was just cheating on myself all this while...
Babe, if u were get to read this...then u will know how i feel for the past few months...
feeling damn sad and down whenever i ask u out...
Excuse excuse and excuse...
this is what i get for the past few monts...

Me:"dearie, wanna go out with me?"
U:" dunno oo, will see about it k?"
Ok, treat that nothing happed, wait till the day come...
U went out with your room mate and neighbour...then what's the point am i asking ya to go out?huh?

Me:" babe, wanna go out this sunday not?"
U:" got assignment."
U got ur assignment to rush, Me?
I don't have la is it?
Huh?

All i wanted is just to spent a few hours with ya to go out for a walk , to catch a movie or so called what a couple should do...
In the end?

I end up become a dumbass here, promises that u made before step into college was just crap...
Hmm...
I dun wish to lose u, but all u care about was just your room mate la, this and that la...
Where am i?
What am i to u huh?
Can't u feel it?

Assignment can rush anytime, but the time for us is like precious u know?
I showered u with concern and love.
But what i got from u?
Please, please, please, spent some time with me...
I'm the one who would spent my life time with ya after this but not ur room mate or ur neighbour k?

Think for me but not for them k?
Please!

If i got a gun in my hand now...
I would just blow my head...
so people out there,
if u ever saw me in EMO state,
KILL ME PLEASE!